Sunday, October 15, 2017

Musings on inner game

There are two you's - The conscious and sub-conscious. Granted that psychological processes are much complicated than such simple freudian reductions, but this is a good heuristic to understand a lot of things in game.

Inner game is value addition to your sub-conscious identity.

You can't approach? There's something wrong deep inside.

You can't escalate? There's something wrong deep inside.

You don't feel good enough. You pine for women who got away, even though you're busy with your harem. You don't feel happy even when you cum in a girl's pussy.

There's something wrong deep inside. Always is.

To me, a lot of times, game appears like an illusion. We know that it isn't pure randomness because we get better overtime. But to my mind, it appears like an illusion, because it lacks determinism. Same opener, same material, same life-situation, same escalation - different outcomes. And yet, it's still not random: So you can't always pin problems on mere bad luck.

But finding what's wrong is extremely difficult. It's extremely difficult. You are trying to look at a part of you which you work overtime to hide from yourself. You create a labyrinth of psychological traps - proximate causes. Weasels first, then meta-weasels. Weird emotions - hatred towards women that you open. Disgust towards women who do give up their vagina to you. Need for solitude. Mood swings. All of these will come like a swarm of bees, and one of them is a queen bee. Find it, and the swarm disappears  - leaving behind the sweet nectar of your untarnished identity.

The same thing, which would have been out in open if your girlfriend hadn't fucked your friend. Or your shitty parents hadn't abused you. Or if you didn't get divorced. Or you hadn't been bullied to near-death in high school. Or if you weren't born in some shitty part of the world. Or in some shitty race. Or in some shitty culture. Or maybe you saw your parents fucking and were scarred for life, when it came to sex.

It can be one of these or anything. Yet tracing them to your approach anxiety/ escalation/ relationship problems can be difficult, perhaps even impossible.

And even if you do find out the true cause, there may be no cure for the disease. Psychological processes are permanent - Neural pathways don't go back. You instead have to cover your core identity with your personality - more neural networks on top.

So yes, focus on the tactics, because they are important and make up so much of your core confidence. But always remember - the biggest wins will always come from inner game remedies. And it will always be the hardest to diagnose.

Saturday, September 9, 2017

The Great Game


Why is it that for most men, talking to women in club is far easier than in real life? Because it’s a hyper-reality. It’s real: everything that is happening is real, the women are real, you are real, the nerves are real. But it’s hyper-real. There is an unspoken social contract between women and men and one of the terms is that of relatively no consequences for the men’s social status despite failed attempts.

It’s an unspoken social contract, which is self-emergent in contemporary society; It is congruent with our evolutionary history. It has two parts, one for each side.

For the women, it is a place for screening top tier men - mainly in terms of looks. But top tier men are by definition rare. The rest of the men serve as indirect mensuration of their own SMV. And if the girl is too horny - she will cue in on other characteristics like social dominance etc.

For men, it’s a ceremony for preening : mainly their physical characteristics, but sexual selection allows for hacks. That may come in the form of musculature and physical bulk, but also agility and physical performance - like dancing. I think of dancing as the oldest form of physical game - a hack, far older than the species itself.

Alcohol relaxes you. That’s a huge deal, a chemical hack allowing even the most scared cats to make approaches and roll the dice if they are drunk enough. Since the women are screening only for physicality, they don’t care about personality etc. For the top tier physicality but shy guy, this is a good strategy and works. His game is - “Just drink and wake up next morning - hopefully not with a whale”

For the male a bit below in the hierarchy, the first step is to copy this strategy. Except it won’t work for him that well, because the magic was in the man and not the process; Hypergamy will screen him out for the top tier women. He will start spamming all women. Something will click, and he will get laid sometimes.

For the beta/gamma, even spamming will not work and he will think game doesn’t work.

Game itself as denial

You see, game works - but it doesn’t solve the problems it pitched to solve, when it sold you the idea.

  1. Getting laid frequently with top tier women using a deterministic method, no matter where you exist in the male hierarchy
  2. Assurance of polygyny/monogamy once you sleep with a woman

Yes. You don’t escape or hack the hierarchy with game.

Understand this. Even before you open your mouth and even if the woman is available, your fate is pretty much sealed. She is the Yes girl, Maybe girl or a no girl.

This is what the No girl teaches us. It can be a blowout, a polite conversation, a harsh drink in your face rebuke, the end result is simple - No matter how suave, charming, threatening, dominant you are, you WON’T get the girl.

As a man, the hierarchy is your prison. It’s a zone within which you can meander about - With game you can make huge leaps and climb a floor or two. But that’s about it. You will have a ceiling and then you’re done. The most dorky guy can come and blow you out. And there’s nothing you’ll be able to do about it.

Rollo often writes in his blog that alpha is a mindset and not a demographic. I disagree with him on this point.

Alpha is a demographic, which of course brings it’s own mindset. An alpha mindset with a beta demographic is like being a transgender woman - Sure she got the fake tits, but i’m still not sleeping with Caitlyn Jenner.

That’s what women will think of you when you’re trying to out-alpha yourself.

And yet, try you must; Two reasons.

Reasons for persisting

First, the hierarchy is an abstraction of reality. Thus, you don’t really know where you are at; All you have is fairly accurate guesses, which are nevertheless guesses. Only when you have significant experience and have put in the years, do you know what your approximate SMV is.

Second, female choice has a significant component of randomness. Even for the alpha, the legs will not open up every time. She will randomly decide - “Yes! This is the seed i’ve been waiting for” and presto. So if it’s a no, from our perspective we don’t know if it’s because of randomness or value.

Men will go to great lengths to deny this. Why?

The Alpha's need for game

Let’s say you are a top tier man, and you get laid frequently. Sex is not a ‘problem’. If it’s because of some characteristics which you posses within control, then it’s manageable. Results more predictable and not vulnerable to your finances, age or another higher man poaching your mates. You can train, you can practice game; Your social intelligence builds up with time and thus will not be vulnerable to ageing, unlike your body.

If however it is based on certain characteristics which are not in your control, then your current results are temporary. You will hit the wall and someday no longer have access to the fine lasses in their twenties. Doesn’t matter that you will do wicked impromptu assumption stacks - she WILL say no. You will be done and thrashed in the bin.

Also, it's less soothing to the ego, especially if you’re a player. It’s not the strength of your personality or will - It was just you. Your genes. Your race. Your height. Your social status. You’re not such a badass hero after all - just another guy who followed the process. A younger daygamer will follow the same process and replace you in ten years. And then you’ll be talking about angelic girls who are not like that and settling down with a ‘high quality’ woman.

The Dreg's need for game

And the opposite end of the spectrum is the no hope dud. The short slow metabolism fatso, working in a seven eleven since ten years, with yellow teeth and a post-divorce dry spell of two decades. His body is still shouting at him to discharge some semen in a soft twenty year old cunt - even if he has to die. And yet, he hasn’t seen his balls since five months now, because he has been drinking beer after finishing his night shift and watching baseball reruns.
He’ll do anything to get laid. But he has no money, power, status or looks. If only a magic bullet existed, a system which he could use to open flood gates of poonani - even if fat mexican sluts with two-tiers bulging out and hair in her armpits.

Tell him that game won’t work for him. No matter how good he implements mystery method, no matter how much he spams. He will take a thousand sets for a lay over the deep dark vaccum. All it requires is persistance, he will say.

Think of it this way. Let’s say there is a most efficient version of game which is sureshot. If all men play it, then surely everyone get’s laid, right? Wrong. Game is procedural within a context - that’s why nightgame attraction doesn’t work in daygame. If every man has game, hypergamy will dictate that no man has game. If you understand evolutionary psychology, the red queen will wave a wand and everything will be reset to level zero.

The Great Game

You see, human beings are creatures which strive against fate. They don’t accept fate, and always suspect that there’s a hack, something which they could do, some method which exists. There has to be something. The humanity’s journey is quiet similar to a gamma’s journey to sigmahood; It will simply not accept it’s place. Every now and then, some will break through. And then they will see the invisible walls of the hierarchy and smirk.

This is how the great game is played.

'Cause every now and then I fall a bit behind
Every time I stare into your eyes

Monday, August 28, 2017

A man's notes on SMP

I honestly don't know how i should write this post, but i'm going to give it a try. Maybe somebody more authoritative should, but i am still going to try.

Evolutionary psychology/biology is the foundation of redpill as we know it - we conjecture and verify from there on. The problem however is that most people in the community are not familiar with evolutionary biology, and thus don't have a proper understanding of how hypergamy plays out in the modern sexual market. Notice that even though i use the term 'modern' - Sexual rules haven't changed since middle paleolithic age (about 70 - 100 thousand years ago); How they play out in some social context differs.

Natural selection is not necessarily utilitarian

Natural selection is a blind process - so blind that there is an almost independent mode of selection called sexual selection. This is the case of the peacock's tail: there's no reason why it's so big, except that it's attractive to peahens; Thus creating an arms race between the peacocks to get the biggest tail (often to the detriment of the species - it makes them less mobile and more vulnerable). This is called a runaway process and can even lead to species extinction.

This is what game is - a peacock's tail. Especially the so called "soft-dominance" game (a good example being tom torero). Being a smooth talker by itself doesn't have too many advantages, but it's pleasing to the female brain. And thus it's sexually selected.

Runaway evolution requires polygyny

We're familiar with this in the community. A good way for the species to evolve is for males to compete in terms of favorable traits (naturally/sexualy selected), and then the winner pumps multiple females. The question being, how polygynous are we? Somewhere around two women per man. But this includes data from hunter-gatherer days, so we can aim for more in modern times with new technology and more populous society.

Yes, alpha fucks and beta bucks. But women simply don't open there legs for just anyone. You have to fulfill fitness criteria, which depend on where the woman is at life right now. If she's a young female without children, she's only shopping for good genes. A tall handsome guy with great physique would do. If however she's a single mom, she's now also looking for high quality paternal investment, so she will be testing for beta bucks side of things. If however, the environment has enough food for her and her babies (aka social security, jobs), then she will keep shopping for good genes; There however hasn't been enough time for evolution to select for perfect sluts. And so here we are, somewhere in between - an empowered slut vs Madonna.

Any effort that you spend on upping your provisioning capabilities are now at a discount in modern life when it comes to sexy time.

Game and the illusion of control

Is game random or deterministic? Is it all a number's game and is it us just deluding ourselves. Here's the equation:-

So in simple terms here's the things that you have to do for an optimum sex life:-

1. Be genetically gifted - Be tall, muscular, good looking white man with facial symmetry.
2. Be intelligent, have charisma, be charming, command respect in other men and be dominant.
3. Hope she is doesn't have stupid rules in her head, doesn't have a friend waiting or grandma blowing up her phone.
4. Hope that in the moment, she wants to fuck.

#1 and #2 are in your control to some extent. #3 is not.

I want to talk about #4, because this is not much discussed in the community. Female sexual choice has an incredibly high degree of randomness. That means she literally doesn't know till the last moment what she is going to do.

Why? Because it is in the species' interest that men can't figure her out. Her body has developed mechanisms to prevent men from guessing her fertility - and that includes her interest level, her behavioral feedback, odor, bodily indicators, etc. Thus, even if you did everything right, their is always a coin toss involved. And most times, the answer is no.

Thus game is just the starting point; And if you're not well endowed (in all ways), then the pussy gate won't open for you without it. However, beyond that, there's still a roll of dice.

The length of relationships

It's not 'till death do us apart'. It's 5 years. After that it's decay, or atleast not the same anymore.

Intelligence is definitely a virtue, but only certain types of intelligence

Most verbal game can be broken down into these three things - Humor, Storytelling and Social intelligence. And what value do these bring to the table? The ultimate runaway trait- human creativity. A girl doesn't give a shit if you know how to code or do finance. Nobody did that in the African grasslands.

Even if you think you have lost a lot of opportunities, you probably haven't

As men, evolution has programmed you to be desperate for sex and thus you look back and start pulling your hair out in anger at lost opportunities. But consider this.

If randomness is king when sealing the deal, then all competencies are probabilistic. The daygame community measures this to variable results (from 1 in 30 to 1 in 100). Let's take the average scenario - 1 in 100. Most intermediates have probably done around 1500 approaches, which leads to a magic number of 15 lays (in my experience the number is a bit higher than this, but we'll go with this). That's it - the only thing separating an intermediate from you is 15 lays! That's about a year in intermediate terms. No matter how much time you have lost, you probably will be able to make up for it.

Also the reason why you will be able to catch up, is because men have a built in fatigue when it comes to a notch count. I would conjecture, that's to make them focus on paternity investment rather than simple pumping and dumping for the rest of their lives. Believe it or not, men get disinterested in getting laid if they're doing ok! So they simply stop opening as much, despite better ratios.

The game is played not with the best strategy, but the most optimal one

Don't search for a complicated game models. A lot of computer simulations have found, the simplest strategies are often the best in evolutionary games (and in general game theory).

As much as i would like to say that quality of your game is the most important thing, the fact being it clearly isn't. Even with the same game, move to somewhere unfavorable and your results will drop. What's important is the highest quality repeatedly deliverable. When in doubt, always favor volume.

That may be moving to the city. That may be driving somewhat longer distances to do daygame. Doing more indirect openers when in suburbs. Whatever. There's a lot of ways to skin the cat. If you're going via the cold approach route, you have chosen a versatile, relatively more easily doable, yet highly inefficient method. It relies on volume.

So think more opens instead of more suaveness; Aim for a basic level of game and then execute, execute and execute. When the window opens, it won't matter how you rolled your tongue in set; She'll only focus on your tongue on her clit.

Sunday, July 23, 2017

Game tip #1 - Seed her

Sure, i want you to literally seed her. But here i'm talking about a technique, which i noticed when i was free-styling a bit and seems to work.

Let me unpack the idea.

Whatever game model you are using, it has a linear locus. That means, given the most common levels of compliance (which is mostly a maybe girl), your approach hovers around certain points around which you formulate your plan; It may deviate a bit here and there, but throughout the process, you scan for these points.

In case of LDM, these are the hook point, escalation compliance, verbal/effort investment. In case of my type of nightgame, it is an IOI/forced IOI, escalation compliance and finally isolation compliance. Heavy words in there, but if you're not a player and don't understand this technically, then it's best not to get into these complications for now; Maybe skip this post. Also daygame mastery is required reading for this post (link).

The idea of seeding is to sub-communicate the next point of compliance, and then go back to the previous one.

Let me give you some quick examples.

Say you have reached the hook point. So now the traditional way is to vibe - general storytelling, non-qualifying open ended questions. Like this.

Her: So what do you do? [Hook]
Daygamer: I flirt with girls. That's my dayjob.[your face should have a cheeky grin and flirty eyes when you say this - flirting 101]
Her: [some kind of a compliance reaction like giggling, smiling, or teasing you back etc..]
Daygamer: Hehe, i work in real estate. It's mainly ...[Moving towards grounding]

What i'm suggesting is that we tweak this a little bit and seed.

Her: So what do you do? [Hook]
Daygamer: I flirt with girls. That's my dayjob - flirting with girls. In a few minutes, i'm may ask your phone number, don't you know?[Seeding with same flirty subcomm] 
Her: [some kind of a compliance reaction like giggling, smiling, or teasing you back etc..]
Daygamer: Hehe, i work in real estate. It's mainly ...[Moving towards grounding] 
[Number Closing]
Daygamer: .. I wanna invite you out sometime, would you like that ? ..[He number closes] 
Daygamer: I think i'll text you probably around Wednesday. What does your schedule look like this week? [seeding for D1]
Girl : blah blah blah.
Daygamer : [Move the conversation towards this thread] blah blah. An awesome life i think is exciting and not normal. You know where you do fun things. Have impolite conversations. Make a painting. Check sexy people out. Kiss a stranger in the moment, like after a war is over and you've won. Life is ... [seeding for D2] 
Daygamer: [Successful compliance somewhere close near the end of this stage but not at the very end, like your complimenting and inspecting her ear rings] You know a good way to get to know a person intimately is to simply ask. I think communication is the key to chemistry. If you have good chemistry, you can simply ask the dirtiest question you can, but the other person will like it. Blah blah .. [Seeding the questions game in D3]

Daygame mastery already covers how to seed for the pull.

Now this thing works well - as to why it does, i'm not sure because i'm not an expert in analyzing game. But here's my take.

Seeding is priming for a forthcoming compliance test in a less intense step of the interaction. So when you are seeding for the number close just after the hook point, you're on a high. She has just complied. So you are not asking for her number, but merely joking that you may do that. The net effect of this is that you are sub-communicating a compliance test covertly before you throw it out in the open in the next step. Two things can happen:-

  1. She complies. Thus she has accepted your proposition covertly. The only thing to do is to run the model and bring her to overt acceptance. If you are adventurous, you may even skip that step; I haven't run enough sets like that though.
  2. She raises objections. Understand this - these were going to come up anyway. So if you have a tactic to defuse them, this allows you to tune that even before you reach that point in the interaction.

    Her: So what do you do? [Hook] 
    Daygamer: I flirt with girls. That's my dayjob - flirting with girls. In a few minutes, i'm may ask your phone number, don't you know?[Seeding with same flirty subcomm] 
    Her: I have a boyfriend. [But she's still standing] 
    Daygamer: Hehe, i work in real estate. It's mainly ...[Notice that the conversation went exactly the same, with the added benefit that you ignored the shit test. Plus, now you know she has a boyfriend, so you can get more R-selected humble bragging in vibing and turn up the "player" vibe]

    Daygamer: Yeah, i kinda like punk rock. In fact that's why i got into it during my college days. Maybe also for the secret admirers (grin..) [This is an R-selected DHV, which is good to use here, because she already has a boyfriend. You now have greater confidence in this, because of the feedback you got by seeding after hook point]

    Daygamer: .. I wanna invite you out sometime, would you like that ? 
    Her: But i have a boyfriend!! [Smiling, looking away. Notice that you already know that, and thus the next tactics have better conviction, since you are not fazed] 
    Daygamer: [flirty eyes + grin] I know. We will grab a quick coffee, flirt a bit and you'll be safely back in your boyfriends arms by midnight. He will kiss you on your forehead and look at you like you're an angel. 
    Her: [Token objections] 
    Daygamer: Here's what i think we should do. We exchange numbers. You wanna come out you come out. If not, i get it. For now let's just exchange numbers. 
    [He number closes] 
    Daygamer: I think i'll text you probably around Wednesday. What does your schedule look like this week? [seeding for D1. Again, notice that the rest of the interaction remains the same]...

Give it a try. So far the quality of the sets feel better with this, but again that's just one man's opinion. Still i think this is a good tactic. I'm also seeding a lot of escalation nowadays, but it's kinda early work, so i can't articulate it well now. Maybe a future post.

Also hopefully you've gotten the point if your learn from my posts - you're NOT controlling the girl. Give up the illusion of the control. Remember, Game is for your confidence and her reading.

Friday, July 7, 2017

First one's the worst one?

The community has a consensus - Your first open of the day is going to be the shittiest and the least smooth.

Sure, i agree. But it's not the worst one.

I'm experimenting with some inner game tech not very well known in the community, and i'll write about it in detail in the future. It's for ironing out my solo daygame, and involves using mindfulness as a tool.

Today experienced something surreal, even creepy on my first open. A lot of AA, but i'm mindfully watching it. A girl walks by; Simple black dress with lacy endings. Not particularly cute, but doable.

I can't open from the front; She walks by.

I observe my fear and play with it a little (don't ask how - i'll write about it later). Then i do a classic yad stop.

Me: I have to give you a complement.
Her: Yes?
Me: You look very nice. Are you single?
Her: No.
Me: I see. Well you still look nice. Enjoy your evening.

Nothing remarkable. Except what happened next was amazing.

I walk away and begin to do a body scan. I notice a feeling of pleasure running along my hands, and my forehead. It grows, and then fills up my body with a weird sensation i can't articulate - It's orgasmish. I'm drowning in pleasure, smiling. I keep observing and walking; Girls are massively bombarding me with  IOIs all of a sudden for some reason.

I come out of mindfulness and that feeling disappears. I feel completely refreshed. It doesn't return later.

May have been in zone, but have been in zone for other things; It doesn't feel like this at all.

Game is amazing!


Thursday, July 6, 2017

There is no such thing as female love..

.. and that's ok. Love is a masculine thing.

However, never forget this.
Women are incapable of love.
It is common knowledge in the manosphere that women love differently than men. However, i would argue that we stop calling it love; It resembles more of a compulsion. Addiction. Need. Something like these. We don't say that we 'love' our dealers; Then why say that for women?

I won't elaborate how i arrived at this conclusion, cause then it will be a boring field report.

If men understand this simple fact, then it clarifies a lot of stuff for them. For instance,
  1. A woman will never appreciate your relationship equity. Why? Because, you are nothing more than a thing for her. And get this right - your ARE a thing for her. She doesn't love you; She's incapable of that.

  2. A woman will always objectify you. You're her credit card. Her dildo. Her mirror. You're not a person with feelings. It may feel like that, when she's looking at you with warm eyes; Trust me that's a lie.

    Remember how the strippers look turned on by you when you go to a strip club; Or how the waitress is wearing a tight top, her boobs popping out and looking at you with a grin and flirty eyes? You know that's pretense, yet looks so real. That's exactly what your girlfriend is doing. Don't be fooled.

  3. Stop looking for relationships to fulfill you. You're looking for female love, which doesn't exist. If you want a relationship, admit it - game is too hard for you and you're good with plain vanilla infrequent sex. Or admit it - you're now getting too old, and so you're suddenly talking about quality women. Or admit it - you're looking for some validation from women. All these are perfectly legitimate reasons. Just don't fool yourself into thinking that you're looking for female love, because it doesn't exist.

  4. Don't chase being respected by her as a goal; She'll not love you for that anyway.
We don't want to accept that women are incapable of love, for then, we will always be alone. That's worst case scenario. And that's true.

If you're a man, you'll always be alone.

When i started this blog, I hoped for this
And i want to go back to being that trusting carefree self, where everything that is heard isn't a machivaliean pattern to watch out for, and i don't have to buy a set of different masks for the office and the club. Where i can perform on fair terms and don't feel lonely, even when i have a warm body under me and an exploding heart within.

Turns out, that this is simply impossible. My goal this year was to get into a relationship; I think that's failing now and i don't see any hope for recovery. The whole idea of a relationship was me looking for something which doesn't exist. Cool, simplifies stuff for me.

Lesson learned. Now we move forward.

Sunday, June 25, 2017

Field report - Open hypergamy

All right guys, this is a field report. Note that this is not a lay report; I'm not comfortable writing them yet. Still, this has been the most surreal night of my nightgame and game in general. And this happened barely two hours ago, so i wanna jot it down before it disappears from my memory. I can't let this reference experience go; Not sure what it means for my entitlement.


Tonight's the night. The man sleeps and the wolf comes out howling. My process begins; The ritual is enticing.

Except, i have tweaked it a bit. Watch porn without jacking off. Watch Ava Adams for the bit-titted milfs. Sami Parker for the asians. Heck i even watch a bit of Angelina Castro - who knows what will happen to my standards if i get drunk too much. I'll go chode once again and fuck a fatty.

I reach the place. The guards fist bump me and i go in. The place is popping.

I smoke outside then go in. The bar dynamics doesn't look favorable, so i decide to go back to my original game model of dance/physical game. It's mystery method, except translated in physical/sub-communication level instead of verbal  (You can check it out in this tweet thread). 

Stage-1 : Value building

I start dancing away from the other girls, but all of them notice me, expecting me to join them. However i stick to the plan. Everybody leaves and i'm the only guy on the dance floor, but i still keep at it. Value builds and i go out for a second smoke.

I'm smoking and i overhear another guy who i know, talking to some feminist fatties about how "he's not gay and i told him to go up to women and make eye contact and smile, but he doesn't do it".

Stage-2: First Set

I go back, grab a corona and head back to the dance floor. Ping a 3-set but blank response. Then ping an asian chick, and she pings back. More dancing, subtle escalation using my hands and touch. Exchange names, bounce to the bar for some water. More small talk, with sex sub-communicated using touch. Bounce off to her friend, vibing with her. I inquire logistics and they look ok. I create a plan for further escalation - take her out for a smoke, maybe tease a kiss, bounce back, more rapport with friend. Then more dancing, more escalation, kiss, take her to bar. Suggest bounceback and prepare her to manage expectations from friend; Else take her number.

Good plan. Except she tells me she doesn't like smoking. She tells me to go and she'll wait. I seed escalation by saying i'll come back, grab her hand 'like this and we'll dance'. She smiles and i go out for another smoke.

Come back and she's gone. I ask her friend where she is, and she says that she doesn't know. I set a time limit till i'll keep watch over the women's washroom and then move on to the next stage, since she's already given me some more value.

Stage -3: Second set

She left and i experience a minor rollercoaster in the club. Fuck me; Why does this always happen to me?

Still i move on to the next step. Or that's what i think.

I go back to the dance floor thinking i'll start opening the cuties, but i see a woman dancing alone. I ping her and she hooks. I turn her around and begin grinding and dirty dancing. She's fully into it.

I keep heating expecting more resistance, but there's full compliance! Ridiculous levels of compliance.

Finally i go for the kiss and there's resistance, so i start kissing the neck. She's aroused and i give it a bite.

I back off  a bit, keep dancing and keep pinging, letting her come to me. She goes off and comes back with her jacket off. And we dance. More escalation. Finally i kiss her and she's up for it. Throws her at me and climbs me. We're making out heavy, real heavy. She's a good kisser - i've to give her that. She removes my T-shirt, and there i am - making out with a woman, half naked on the dance floor. She's impressed with my pecs.

Now she's really aroused, so she starts feeling my cock. But she's not done with it yet. She starts unzipping me right there on the dance floor! I want to push my hands into her pants -  it's too tight, so i'm fingering her pussy with her pants on.

She starts undoing my belt! I'm wary if my pant is going to fall down, so i hold on to it with my left hand. It's very heavy stuff, very bedroom stage.

I notice flashes and realize that other people are filming this shit! What the fuck! I panic a bit, back off and ask her to come with me to the bar. We go, but she starts walking towards the ladies room.

Open hypergamy

I ask her, "Where are you going?"

She's behaving awkwardly. She tells me - "I'm with my man here".


"Here", and i see a man standing right besides me! He's seething with rage, his face resembling that of  an angry cat. She gives him a hug!

(Her man)

I'm dumbfounded. I know of open-hypergamy, but this is just too much. I hear myself saying - "Your.. Man..". My head is spinning.

She waves me bye and i reciprocate.

Other minor details:-

A woman with boyfriend opening me and asking me chode interview mode questions. Seriously, if girls were men, they would be really inferior in the hierarchy; Good that they have a pussy.

Another married woman dirty dancing with me.

Rest is trivial. The beta males thought that i was some kind of a 'playa' based on these results and were fist-bumping and high-fiving me (technically i am, but not based on this result; You get the point).

Learning points:-

These things need to be re-iterated:-

1. If you are alpha fux, here's how much you need to invest to get sex - zero. While this sounds nice, I'm now very perturbed at the prospect of me not being able to get into a relationship this year, because women think of me as a human dildo.

2. Open hypergamy has now gone to insane levels. If you're beta bux, get ready for your girlfriend to give handjobs and blowjobs to other dudes, and coming back to give you a hug - all right in front of you. I would have loved to open your eyes, but i want to bust a nut in your girl's pussy. Or atleast on her face; She would love it if i do it.

3. I'm unsure of my SMV. Now i consider myself a high 6. But increasingly (and with other reference experiences as well), i have very well be a high 7. There's even a possibility of me being a low 8. And this is not trivial, because i used to be massive overweight just six years ago; I feel like being an impostor in my own body.

4. When rollercoaster happens, remind myself of the countless times good things have happened after bad things. In game it never really ends. So follow the process.

Done. Field reports are something which i normally am massively bored of, but this needed to be captured. My wing left me some edibles two days ago, so i'm off to some music, dark souls or porn.