Sunday, June 25, 2017

Field report - Open hypergamy

All right guys, this is a field report. Note that this is not a lay report; I'm not comfortable writing them yet. Still, this has been the most surreal night of my nightgame and game in general. And this happened barely two hours ago, so i wanna jot it down before it disappears from my memory. I can't let this reference experience go; Not sure what it means for my entitlement.


Tonight's the night. The man sleeps and the wolf comes out howling. My process begins; The ritual is enticing.

Except, i have tweaked it a bit. Watch porn without jacking off. Watch Ava Adams for the bit-titted milfs. Sami Parker for the asians. Heck i even watch a bit of Angelina Castro - who knows what will happen to my standards if i get drunk too much. I'll go chode once again and fuck a fatty.

I reach the place. The guards fist bump me and i go in. The place is popping.

I smoke outside then go in. The bar dynamics doesn't look favorable, so i decide to go back to my original game model of dance/physical game. It's mystery method, except translated in physical/sub-communication level instead of verbal  (You can check it out in this tweet thread). 

Stage-1 : Value building

I start dancing away from the other girls, but all of them notice me, expecting me to join them. However i stick to the plan. Everybody leaves and i'm the only guy on the dance floor, but i still keep at it. Value builds and i go out for a second smoke.

I'm smoking and i overhear another guy who i know, talking to some feminist fatties about how "he's not gay and i told him to go up to women and make eye contact and smile, but he doesn't do it".

Stage-2: First Set

I go back, grab a corona and head back to the dance floor. Ping a 3-set but blank response. Then ping an asian chick, and she pings back. More dancing, subtle escalation using my hands and touch. Exchange names, bounce to the bar for some water. More small talk, with sex sub-communicated using touch. Bounce off to her friend, vibing with her. I inquire logistics and they look ok. I create a plan for further escalation - take her out for a smoke, maybe tease a kiss, bounce back, more rapport with friend. Then more dancing, more escalation, kiss, take her to bar. Suggest bounceback and prepare her to manage expectations from friend; Else take her number.

Good plan. Except she tells me she doesn't like smoking. She tells me to go and she'll wait. I seed escalation by saying i'll come back, grab her hand 'like this and we'll dance'. She smiles and i go out for another smoke.

Come back and she's gone. I ask her friend where she is, and she says that she doesn't know. I set a time limit till i'll keep watch over the women's washroom and then move on to the next stage, since she's already given me some more value.

Stage -3: Second set

She left and i experience a minor rollercoaster in the club. Fuck me; Why does this always happen to me?

Still i move on to the next step. Or that's what i think.

I go back to the dance floor thinking i'll start opening the cuties, but i see a woman dancing alone. I ping her and she hooks. I turn her around and begin grinding and dirty dancing. She's fully into it.

I keep heating expecting more resistance, but there's full compliance! Ridiculous levels of compliance.

Finally i go for the kiss and there's resistance, so i start kissing the neck. She's aroused and i give it a bite.

I back off  a bit, keep dancing and keep pinging, letting her come to me. She goes off and comes back with her jacket off. And we dance. More escalation. Finally i kiss her and she's up for it. Throws her at me and climbs me. We're making out heavy, real heavy. She's a good kisser - i've to give her that. She removes my T-shirt, and there i am - making out with a woman, half naked on the dance floor. She's impressed with my pecs.

Now she's really aroused, so she starts feeling my cock. But she's not done with it yet. She starts unzipping me right there on the dance floor! I want to push my hands into her pants -  it's too tight, so i'm fingering her pussy with her pants on.

She starts undoing my belt! I'm wary if my pant is going to fall down, so i hold on to it with my left hand. It's very heavy stuff, very bedroom stage.

I notice flashes and realize that other people are filming this shit! What the fuck! I panic a bit, back off and ask her to come with me to the bar. We go, but she starts walking towards the ladies room.

Open hypergamy

I ask her, "Where are you going?"

She's behaving awkwardly. She tells me - "I'm with my man here".


"Here", and i see a man standing right besides me! He's seething with rage, his face resembling that of  an angry cat. She gives him a hug!

(Her man)

I'm dumbfounded. I know of open-hypergamy, but this is just too much. I hear myself saying - "Your.. Man..". My head is spinning.

She waves me bye and i reciprocate.

Other minor details:-

A woman with boyfriend opening me and asking me chode interview mode questions. Seriously, if girls were men, they would be really inferior in the hierarchy; Good that they have a pussy.

Another married woman dirty dancing with me.

Rest is trivial. The beta males thought that i was some kind of a 'playa' based on these results and were fist-bumping and high-fiving me (technically i am, but not based on this result; You get the point).

Learning points:-

These things need to be re-iterated:-

1. If you are alpha fux, here's how much you need to invest to get sex - zero. While this sounds nice, I'm now very perturbed at the prospect of me not being able to get into a relationship this year, because women think of me as a human dildo.

2. Open hypergamy has now gone to insane levels. If you're beta bux, get ready for your girlfriend to give handjobs and blowjobs to other dudes, and coming back to give you a hug - all right in front of you. I would have loved to open your eyes, but i want to bust a nut in your girl's pussy. Or atleast on her face; She would love it if i do it.

3. I'm unsure of my SMV. Now i consider myself a high 6. But increasingly (and with other reference experiences as well), i have very well be a high 7. There's even a possibility of me being a low 8. And this is not trivial, because i used to be massive overweight just six years ago; I feel like being an impostor in my own body.

4. When rollercoaster happens, remind myself of the countless times good things have happened after bad things. In game it never really ends. So follow the process.

Done. Field reports are something which i normally am massively bored of, but this needed to be captured. My wing left me some edibles two days ago, so i'm off to some music, dark souls or porn.

Sunday, June 18, 2017

Humdrum gambits

My daygame's coming back as i withdraw from nightgame; Or rather, trying to withdraw. Went to a bar yesterday after 11. Had two women - older. Both of them having a typical eastern european look that us players can read. I did a mix of a discrepancy observational and eastern european cold read, and they hooked.

They were both Czech republican immigrants with shitty jobs. They ask me my age and one remarks that 27 is too young. I take it as a sign of provider hunting coupled with attention whoring, the blonde dragging the brunette out for a night out. More jerkboy game, a number close which will flake. So i decide to practice verbal and teasing a bit. Very layoffish; Maybe they thought i was a fag.

Learned some interesting new stuff. Apparently, the Czech's hate Russians. Apparently, the older generation is still nostalgic about the soviet era - jobs, healthcare, cheap loans for newly wed. I teased i would call them Sasha and Dasha, and they lapped it up.

Rewind back a few hours. A band is playing somewhere under open sky, and a sizable crowd has gathered. I'm however, standing behind them across the street in front of an irish pub, smoking. I notice a black woman, box-braided hair with gold cuffs. I finish my smoke and open with the simplest possible open.

Sorry, but can i ask you something random.. Deadpan face

I think your hairstyle looks very nice.. Bored look.

I was wondering if you're single.. Surprised. Can't contain a smile anymore.

She tells me she isn't and i see a ring. I compliment her once again and leave.

This all was yesterday. Today it's hot. Fucking 103 degrees hot. I feel like i'm in some kind of a desert. Maybe i should buy a camel and a sheikh's hat. Opens will be easy - "Habibi, do you want a ride?" I've got brown skin; maybe i can pull that off.

Why don't i write my lay reports? Cause unlike other guys, i don't get laid with three new girls a month. And mine are not interesting. Same bars. Same wine shops. Same streets. Same bedroom. My stories are in my failures.

Other players are living the dream. Travelling the globe. Doing adventure sports. Having adventure sex. Every new notch is in a new place, a new country; When the girl will moan they will hear a different language. Their vagina will speak the same monologue though.

I have a different dream - an american one. Work 9 to 5. Go to the gym. Do some daygame and some nightgame. Finish dark souls - comparable to daygame in how depressing it can get. Trying to kill Pontiff Sylyvahn and dying for the hundreth time. Maybe i should giveup, but i don't really care anymore. He summons a shadow, but i keep slashing and evading. Eventually, he kills me, but before dying i deliver a lethal blow. We die together. I get a massive surge of adrenaline and dopamine - it's like cocaine.

So why do i keep living this boring life? I come from hell. Fate created me as a creature of clay, and there's only so much i can do. That's why, i appreciate this life differently than most guys who will ever read this; I know this is cryptic, but that's all i can give you for now.

I'm free to do my own thing, and this won't last forever. But until it does, i love the humdrum and i love the play. I'm two faced - I'm clark kent and i'm superman. Or rather, i'm palaptine and i'm darth sirius. I'm the nice guy and i roll the dice when nobody's looking. They do infer things about me, but I let them speculate. Meantime, i remain the black book of wonderful stories.

My life is now a weird uncontrolled experiment. It's fascinating.

Friday, June 2, 2017

My Secret Little Stories

Man : Sorry, can i stop you for a second.
Woman: Yes
Man: Awesome. I think you look nice. Are you single?
Woman: Thanks !!
Man: Single?
Woman: Yes, i am.
Man: Cool. Your hair looks very pretty. Do you work as a hairdresser or something?
Woman: No haha.
Man: Well, it's that pretty....

As i'm doing more solo daygame, i'm experiencing something weird.

That game is just an illusion; There is no rule book.

Sometimes i purposefully violate the tenets of game, but it still works. Sometimes, very beta boyish sets hook. Sometimes bad verbal hooks.

My last date was a borderline maybe-girl; i didn't think that she'd even be coming out. I did a lot of experimental stuff in that date. For instance, i purposefully told her that i want to bang her. Revealed my plan to her in full detail, and what i think is gonna happen. I told her flatly that i didn't find her hotter than a 6, and her expecting anything higher is simply not realistic. I also told her that men will bang anything. I guess you can say, the entire set was a gigantic elephant in the room.

And yet my tongue was rolling inside her mouth in a few minutes. I like kissing soft female lips - maybe it's the romantic in me. I told her that men get women back to their places saying that they'll watch netflix, get the woman drunk and then have sex with them. A few minutes later i told her to chuck her lyft and come with me. I refused to promise her that nothing would happen.

Taking away plausible deniability - She refused and i went home with blue-balls. Not sure why i did all that knowingly, but i had a lot of fun.

But i could also read her. I knew why she didn't come. I had already told her that we may be fucking, but we may not. Given how i tired i was, me not fucking her was a realistic possibility (or maybe not, given how much of a horn-dog i am). But i could see in her eyes - she wouldn't be able to resist if she came back. And she didn't want that.

And despite all this, i felt no resentment. Which brings me to the point of this post.

I'm not gaming for sex anymore it seems. Not sure why i am doing that. Not sure why anyone would want to do that.

Or maybe i'm not gaming for only sex; The very thought of seducing women for fun and not lust is creepy to me, but i have no choice but to acknowledge that i'm doing that on some level. But it's fun as hell; Come to think of it, there's nothing else i find interesting.

Such a kick! When i go back to work on Mondays, coworkers ask me how my weekend was.

 "The usual. I did my laundry and cleaned my room."

There's a mammoth grin on my face and twinkle in my eyes.

Maybe that's all i ever wanted -. My secret little stories.

Sunday, May 21, 2017

Denial in Redpill

The redpill community has a classic Kuber-Ross model for unplugging - Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, Acceptance. And trust me, the road to full acceptance is a very long one, perhaps one without an end; Perhaps unplugging is a journey and not a destination.

Denial comes in two main forms in this community : Repudiation and Evasion.


All this redpill stuff is bullshit. Men and Women have same agendas and desires. There is equity in relationships - if i take care of her and treat her right, she will fuck me and not sway when a Clooney rolls by.

This is the most common form of denial which has been talked about a lot in the community, so i won’t elaborate on this. This is most plugged in men - they are at huge risk if they live in the west; That’s all i’ll say on this.


This is a more subtle version of denial and more insidious - If you’re caught, you’ll end up wasting a lot of time, perhaps never make it. And that’s why this needs to be called out. Now.

It goes like this - 

Redpill is not really about women. It’s about becoming better men. It’s realizing your christian/muslim roots. It’s really about creating great businesses. It’s saving the civilization from degenerate rapist hordes. It’s about making <xyz> great again.

These men will do anything except ask the central question - as a man how can i get the most sex and most intimacy, without compromising on my freedom and emotional security?

It’s too much hassle, so i’m just gonna play video games.

This is fine by me.

It’s too much hassle, so i’m just gonna play video games. You fuck faces are getting blown out on the street/club/coffee shops. That’s what game makes you - a looser.

This gets on my nerves. Here’s a few more forms of evasion i can list:-

Gym and fitness

Yup a good physique is a necessity. That’s however not being Ronnie Coleman.

Men don’t understand how less visual women are; They just don’t give a fuck if you have 13 inch biceps and 6 pack abs - If you are not masculine, your chances of getting laid will drop no matter what.

So first understand that all the gym and steroid game is a system. It’s for a certain type of men, with certain type of game and life goals. It’s not necessarily compatible with what you got/want. Heck, you may not even have the genetics for that. Play to your strengths, understand your weaknesses and set your expectations accordingly- how many times does this need repeating?

However, if you think that you’re gonna open the pussy box after a year in gym, you’re mistaken. You will only increase your chances when you cold approach, but you still have to ask.

So if all you’re doing is reading, writing and tweeting about gym without cold approaching, you’ll not make it. I’ve seen men with awesome physique being approached by women, and indeed, i myself have been checked out often by women when i had abs, but the first case is very rare and in the second case none of those women approached me.

Gym is not game.


There are a lot of guys on twitter who will deliberately misconstrue redpill with christianity/islam. 


If you’re redpill polygyny/polygamy is completely acceptable.
Sleeping with married women is completely acceptable.
Sleeping with a mom and her twenty something daughter is completely acceptable.

Before the islamists start clapping, have to remind them that pre-marital sex with their daughters and sisters is also acceptable.

What you traditionalists don’t realize that these systems are all means of control. In the context of the sexual market, these systems had an effect of neutralizing hypergamic nature of women and the resulting male conflicts for a stable civilization. A fine goal in my opinion, though comes with a lot of baggage.

Problem is we don’t live in history and human nature always moves away from constraints towards choices; It’s not necessarily a bad thing. But now that we’ve gone egalitarian, women are never going to go back to “traditionalism ”; It's going to end up being a constraint on men’s sexuality.


Sure, everone’s interested in politics. But if the only thing i see in your twitter are trump tweets, feminists, SJW bashing, brexit, fake news - sorry buddy. You’re just not redpill.

Hypergamy doesn’t give a fuck about who sits in the oval office; If you don’t get your frame down, you’re girlfriend is still going to stop sleeping with you. Doesn’t matter if you two went to a trump rally together.

What has happened is a lot of republican and right-wing dudes have joined the bandwagon.

A lot of leftists are feminists.Since we hate leftists, feminists are our enemies.These redpill guys hate feminism. so these redpill guys are our friends. In fact, redpill must be just evangelican christianity/republican social commentary. So here’s my list of ‘redpilling’ - Second ammendment, pro-life, global warming denial and pro-oil, roll back social security, submissive stay at home women who will cook, clean, stay in shape, never say a word and simply give me good head and fuck me like a slut who’s a sex addict, even though she will be a virgin at marriage.

Yup, this is what is being peddled as redpill. I wonder why these guys don’t move to saudi arabia; Perhaps that’s the ultimate utopia for them.

Genuflecting for monogamy

Can a married man or a man in commited relationship be redpill? Sure he can; In fact this year my goal is to get into one. I’m not very keen on a monogamous one, but i’m still open to the idea.

Problem being a few people seem to work backwords. Say a guy who is in a troubled marriage, finds out about redpill and hypergamy.

Ok, so the wife is salivating over the coworker. God knows maybe she’s banging him. Sure i’ve been with her since five years and have a kid, but hypergamy didn’t care.

It’s a horrible condition to be in, something which i perhaps will never fathom (hopefully). And trust me, i know how being cheated on feels. It burns. It burns in your guts and you stay up nights lonely, angry, crying and smashing your furniture. And if you have kids, then i cannot even imagine how much that pain will be amplified. So what is that guy supposed to do now?

Save his marriage - that’s what he’s supposed to do. He has kids to raise, and if he get’s divorced, they will be taken away from his life. His net worth chopped to 45%. Of course, he should try to salvage his marriage. In fact redpill concepts of frame, dominance hierarchies, polarity, conditionality of intimacy and complimentarity are extremely useful tool in these situations.

But say he succeeds. Good on him, i’m happy for him. But then he says that monogamy is the only legitimate form of intimacy and all men who date multiple women are degenerates.

Marry a good quality girl, maintain frame and all will be well. You guys need to grow up.

Well buddy, it’s stupid to make yourself more vulnerable if you already know female nature; Atleast the chode has a real reason - ignorance. Understand this, you did the right thing by saving your marriage and sharing your life with her. Also understand this - if you are going to turn back time, and you still know the same things that you know today - NOT commiting to the very same woman would be the right thing to do. You are in monogamy not by choice but by ignorance; Stop shaming other men for perfectly legitimate rational choices and guilting them for their biological drives.

Chode Crystals

In the good old days of pickup, there used to be a term called “Chode Crystal”. This was a group of chodes feeding off each other’s reality in order to block out redpill. It was mostly used in the context of repudiating redpill. In fact, people on twitter who’re evading also have a similar signature :-
  • Not cold approaching in real life if they’re single.
  • Tweeting a lot all the time all days.
  • Constant patting each other’s backs for trivialities (Rivelino has a nice hastag for this - #faciletweet).
  • Huge lists of follow recommendations (sometimes entire tweets). This is a groupie signature - the name orders will keep on permuting, but it’s a close group of people marketing each other. And because there are so many mentions of these guys, people mistake that for substantive content. A lot of these guys have nothing substantial to say even if they have a huge number of followers - because they don’t experience the sharp edge of life on a daily basis.

And the single most important feature to identify these people - real misogyny. I now that we tend to roll our eyes, because of the countless times that word has been thrown at us for completly unwarranted reasons. But there is a thing as misogyny. And no, REDPILL IS NOT MISOGYNY. I for a fact love being around women and enjoy them a lot. I also recognize their feral nature; In fact i’ve begun to revel in it.

But this is what the evader thinks

I was nice to the woman and never got anything for that.This asshole got laid like a rockstar his whole life with these same girls.Thus women are cunts and deserve to be treated like that, if i want to get laid. QED

The reality being it’s not about being nice or douche at all. It’s about what works. The moment you apply a moral annotation (niceness/badness) to it, you’ve fallen into a trap (seriously, it’s a tactical issue for your inner-game).

Redpill will lead you into serious streaks of misogyny in the beginning and bring you back from it. But if everything is going correct, your bitterness should in fact go down the more you unplug - that’s why it’s called acceptance. Sure this is not my dream female nature, but i guess i’ll just roll with whatever i have.

But if someone is always talking shit about women, he’s fronting. All women are sluts. Really? Try fucking married women you don’t know and see how easy it goes. Then you’ll realize what it takes to cross the line - for BOTH sides. The reason these guys say these things is that they don’t take action, don’t get positive experiences with women and thus have nothing good to say about them.

If you haven’t seen any woman as a work of art in the last month, you’re not really doing it. You need to take action and embrace the grind. Don’t mistake realism for ever-present harshness; Reality has nothing against you. Killing the beta doesn’t mean killing your emotions. Instead it’s working with them and overriding them if necessary. It’s stronger emotional control.

As a ground rule, see if the content is anti-game; If it is, it’s not redpill. Note that you don’t necessarily have to be a player to write this. A good example being Rollo, who is married and doesn’t write field reports. Yet, find me a single anti-game post or tweet that he has written. That blog is truly redpill.

Consequences of conflating redpill with other things

This has real consequences for men, and that’s why i think more people in the community should write about this.

  • Religious nutters drive their own agendas even when redpill, grounded in evolutionary biology, is the very anti-thesis of religious doctrine. It confuses newbies.
  • Women infiltrating the manosphere, which is supposed to be a male space. There’s a reason that this exists - because men need unbaised, real advice and data. When women enter:-

            - We are now in a sexual market.
            - Male nature in sexual markets is to compete for females.
            - Women won’t give true and effective advice.
            - Men will withold useful information to outcompete other men.
            - Most importantly, men will not feel free to express their masculinity. This is                           important because masculinity grows when it comes out in the open.

Just because someone attaches the name ‘redpill’ in front of her twitter handle, doesn’t mean she’ll be your wingwoman. She’s still the same - a woman. She’ll do nothing to progress your unplugging and in fact hinder it. Listen to them, and you’re on your way to incel hell.

It’s laughable that there’s a documentary by the name ‘redpill’ which has nothing to do with MGTOWs, players, and the biological underpinnings of hypergamy. And that too by a feminist! Here's another one :-

Both genders should stay out of each other’s spaces - and toilets.

  • This has led to more trivialization of the message. Heck, we even have posts on “coffee machines” and our new emerging buzzword (read bullshit) - deep soy. Is this what we want to be known as - advocates against soy?

The situation is so bad, that a lot of genuine womanizers don’t want to associate with redpill anymore. This is unfortunate, because game brings real data and experiences which most men can benefit from. With players retreating, and all these above mentioned agents barging in, data will increasingly become corrupt and the message tarnished. More boys will find themselves helpless, more divorces will happen, more men will loose their children and more men will hang themselves.

Building a business is a huge accomplishment. Doing 30 pull ups is a huge accomplishment. Being a better person is a great accomplishment. It just has nothing to do with redpill.

Saving the civilization only happens when each individual in the civilization saves himself and only himself. Delusions of grandeur don’t convert to reality; Even small changes need huge upheavals of identity. 

Saturday, April 15, 2017

Dancing in Darkness

Sexual Absurdity

The absurd is his extreme tension, which he maintains constantly by solitary effort, for he knows that in that consciousness and in day-to-day revolt, he gives proof of his only truth, which is his defiance.

--- Albert Camus, The Myth of Sysiphus

In philosophy, absurdity is not a fluffy word and has a precise meaning to it; This post won't delve into the philosophy of absurdism. But there is an aspect of absurdism which is relevant to game, and that is what i want to capture here.

Let's first define absurdity in the context of this discussion.

Absurdity is a discrepancy between expectation and reality without a rational justification.

When it comes to the sexual market place, absurdity is the discrepancy between your entitlement and your real sexual value at a particular moment of time. Every man deep inside wants to be the hottest guy on the planet who sleeps with a different woman every night. In realty, most are average by definition.

Perhaps, he's good looking with no talent in game. Or perhaps it's the opposite.

Perhaps he lives in suburbs, with not a lot of options. There can be many possibilities, but end of day, he has low SMV.

Now what's the reason for this? You may ask why do you have low SMV? Maybe it's the race thing - you're indian/paki/chinese (that's almost half the people on earth). Maybe it's the height, low testosterone. Or maybe, simply because your dad is ugly.

At some point in the game journey you may ask yourself - why did this happen to me? The answer being, for no particular reason.

Why did i have crappy abusive parents? Why did i get cheated on while my friends with similar SMV and mindset didn't? For no particular reason.

SMP is absurd. There is no rationale behind your low/average SMV. It's brute statistics; Most guys have to be average and you're among them.

The next question being, what's depreciating your SMV. If it's your body structure and musculature, start working out. If it's social skills, start gaming. Some things you can change.

But some things, you can't . The shape of your nose, your height, the melanine in your skin, your bone structure, the density of GABA receptors in your brain. Your past and it's impact on your inner game. The time lost before redpill awareness.

These things put a ceiling on your SMV.

So let's say you have zero SMV. Should you give up on game?

Sexual Revolt

Camus would have called this sexual sucide - Game denial, MGTOW etc. are all forms of this. You stop playing the game and spectate with full awareness.

That revolt is the certainty of a crushing fate, without the resignation that ought to accompany it.

--- Albert Camus, The Myth of Sysiphus

Either way it will all end. Whether you play the game or not, whether someone succeeds with women or not, we're all going to die. In the end, all these will come to nothing. All of these. Everyone will be a failure and a looser, quickly forgotten as if he never existed. Nothingness will creep through and take away everything, even darkness.

You have no SMV and can never stop a girl. Sure, but why not find out in how many different ways can you fail? Even so, you experience a surge of approach anxiety, the realization that it meant nothing and finally the fleeting but liberating experience of having done something bold. Your heart is thumping fast and you're shaking with excitement. Great! People spend money on tickets to buy this stuff during christmas holidays, and yet you get it all daily!

Throw in a bit more SMV. Some girls stop but will not give you the number. Sucks, but can you have an interesting conversation? Can you have a sexually charged conversation and keep her engaged for a couple of minutes? Her eyes digging into yours, both of you eating each other out with your pupils; The air is flaming hot and there's lightning in your body.

Maybe you have a bit more SMV and go out on dates frequently. Can you kiss her consistently? Can you spike things up and calm them down; Can you repeat it again?

Start looking at game experientially.  Learn your true SMV and try improving it. But once you're at the point of diminishing returns, you should have a fair estimate. Compare it with what you really want in your heart and face the absurd.

The only way forward is giving up or absurd freedom.

Do it despite low SMV, knowing that you won't get what you want. To feel alive.

No matter how much success or failure you have in game, it will be intense. It will always be exciting. It will give you the rush. And it will always be the ultimate hedonic plunge.

Take risks, open difficult sets, escalate fast and blow up sets. It's all so much suspense, anxiety, so much disappointment, so much anger. So much euphoria, when it comes. So much life.

The alternative is a comfortable, boring and empty life. Also called, being a zombie.

All of us are sexually irrelevant sooner or later. The difference is in our stories and the choices that we make. The triggers that we pull. The dices that we roll.

We dance in darkness, threads of disco ball beams caressing us - a work of art. We see a hot girl looking at us. We go over and ask for a dance, but are shut down. This is our fifth rejection of the night. We back off and move to another area on the dance floor, ears screeching and music creeping through our bones - we can feel it. We're drunk or maybe gravity's not right today, cause our body is moving on it's own. Everybody's looking, girls dancing with us, but we no longer care. Dev's #1 is playing and we loose ourselves to music. We close our eyes and there's darkness. We dance in darkness. And don't get laid.

Or we stay home, and don't get laid.

Game is the harbinger of sensations and experiences; Listen and brace yourself for life.

Friday, March 24, 2017

The Pathos of Distance

Blank Slatism

I was reading Nietzsche's 'Beyond good and evil', when i stumbled upon what was the germ for this post. Ever since, i'm pondering on this; It's effect on my vibe is a bit strange.

There is an assumption in the sphere : Male hierarchy is all relative and subjective to a large extent.

Due to various circumstances, life histories and cultural influences, you are either alpha or beta. Women put you into different boxes and frame different rules for you. They bang you within five minutes or take six dates. They go out sightseeing or refuse to text you if they don't wanna fuck. Men are neatly categorized and presented to the service of the feminine hive.

All men start out as chodes. They have no clue, and they behave like fucking idiots. They learn game, become redpill aware; It's hard and a massive filter to separate the higher betas from filth. This is a chasm of no return - if you cross, you can't turn back the clock.

But there's that assumption - you can traverse the hierarchy and actualize. Maybe it will take you a huge number of rejections and hardwork, but you can still make it if you are diligent and persistent. Don't give up.

What if this is not true? What if we are the few chosen ones who were destined to make it?

I would argue that it would be better for players to think this way; To consider themselves as the nobility of human species. We are born with a potential and the rest of the cattle-folk will never get it. And we should start thinking of our betaness as social gaslighting by mediocre people; Their betaness is just permanent disability.

Let me explain what i mean by this.

Lowly People, Wrong Methods

Take the concept of entitlement. It's congruent belief in your ability to fuck hot women. If you try to pull women higher than your level of entitlement you feel nervous; If you try to pull women lower than that, you'll be bored. It will be like snacking on a protein bar - You're hungry, but that's about it.

But what about other men? Entitlement is a very first person concept. Which means it's a world view that you have about yourself, but it doesn't have any conception of your position in the male hierarchy. It's very experiential - I'm entitled to this girl BECAUSE i've fucked two others similar or hotter than her. You derive your value from your reference experiences. But there's a flaw in this methodology.

You are deducing value by looking at other people. I remember watching RSD's blueprint decoded some years ago, and they mentioned the concept of pinging. This model of determining value by external feedback is conditioned into us by our parents when we are little children. It's bad to talk to strangers, always follow rules, etc.

I think we should look at these people and these paradigms.

The woman - Possibly rejected by a man she wanted to be, because she looked mediocre and ever since justifying her purity to all men in her life by lying to them. The man - probably a beta, never good with women and thus oblivious to female nature and conned by them his entire life. If he was lucky, he was the second choice. Not very reliable people to base your life on in this domain. In short, lowlife scum.

And what about the paradigms of morality. Religions - i can't mock them enough. Our esteemed candidates : One which doesn't even understand the basics of human reproduction and glorifies self-sacrifice and passivity. It's close cousin - glamorizes child brides, honor culture, a breed of degenerate hordes who's easy fix to get women is either to rape them or blow themselves up and move to a personal brothel of their own in another dimension. Or if we go far east, ideologies who's escatological wet-dreams are not just elimination of constraints in life, but the very conception of life itself.

All of them with the same message - you suck, you faggot. We give value, and if you don't get it from us, you're fucked.

These are the judgement paradigms which dictate our lives - from choosing who gets to rule us to deciding what to do with our own penises.

Every framework that we use to judge value is a useless blueprint with unrealistic expectations taught to us by useless human automatons.

How can you trust that? You can't.

One has to create his own values. Generate new ontologies and epistemologies. You are greater than your lowly parents or degenerate collectivist herd/culture/religion/country that you were born in.

Being Greater

You see this when you try to make a point gently to some simp without hurting his feelings - he won't get it. He's incapable of getting it; It's not in his constitution to get it. His wife will fuck the neighbor, he will have some drama, but still he'll forgive her and move on. He's lowly and born for the sake of being sacrificed for others - for the nobility.

I'm myself guilty of this. I feel approach anxiety - why? Because a woman will judge me? That is what bluepill conditioning does - makes me think that her, being born with a vagina, which requires no competancy and suffering, is my equal; That she's even capable of being my equal. Is the herb ever equal to an oak, or even an oak's seed?

A lot of things are not mentioned in beginner game literature. Don't think about trying to control her. Don't be interested in what she wants. You are not obligated to finish conversations and wish her well. Why don't they tell us all this?

Because selling products commercially is still peddling the bluepill fantasy. When somebody has to sell you something, he will pitch what you want, even if that is delusional. Not everyone can get game and redpill. The masters know this - no matter who they sell it to, only the chosen one's will get it. So why not make a profit out of simps.

Women are not our equals. They can't be, it's impossible for the most successful of them to even conceptualize the competency that even the lowliest of man requires for success. They are beneath you; Doesn't matter even if you're just starting out.

Think of yourself as nobility. You have the right to stop these women on streets and shops; The other men don't. These are subjects - lesser men and women. They are weak and liars. Their purpose is to allow you to grow and if need be, sacrificed for your sake. You create value and impose it on these ignoramuses.

You are at a higher level by pure chance. Look down on them and don't feel guilty. It's your right and your natural state of being.

Saturday, February 18, 2017

Self worth

In psychology, the term self-value has a very specific meaning: It's the sum total of your psyche's picture of yourself. It has two components: self-esteem and self-worth. Self-esteem is what you picture yourself as being perceived by others. Self-worth is how you perceive your own worth intrinsically. Self-esteem is externally projected and personality driven, while self-worth is internal and character driven.

A lot is talked about self-esteem in game and it being the generator of your outer game. You should be breaking rapport. You should be qualifying. You should neg her. All these are prescribed methods of establishing you as a person having a higher self-esteem; Someone she thinks is worthy of her vagina. As tactical methods, they work. However as with everything in life, things are more complicated than they are on paper.

Take a look at the world around you. The world in which you wake up, take a shower, grab a quick latte and head over to work. Hang out with friends, talk to your parents, chat with women and try to bed them. The world that you live and breath in. Everytime you'll switch on you TV, there will be someone telling you how stupid you are. How outdated your masculinity - your very essence is. You kiss a woman and make moves on her body, but that netflix series you're running is buzzing how lucky the guy is to get a wife, without whom, he's a stunted fool. For the world, you're an underling of the human kind, a lower caste and an apt slave for the society to exploit. Behind every successful man, is a woman - such a cliche.

If you believe society, you have no intrinsic self-worth. Everything that you do is wrong and selfish. Unless you do what it says; It creates meaning and values for you. You go along, but you find that those values are indifferent to your well being. No wonder men kill themselves in such large numbers and it's still not an issue anywhere. As i tweeted recently,

Society does everything in it's power to make you feel worthless and disposable without it's assistance. In short, claim that you have zero self worth and you have to earn it. Asserting that you really don't have a reason to live. And that women will confer meaning.

What is qualification?

Game literature and infields have an implicit assumption - you need to be at your best behavior when you're trying to bang a woman. And players keep harping about how you shouldn't keep the woman on a pedestal. When i was a newbie, i used to interpret it as not showing weak behavior and qualifying her. Again, truth but nuanced. The reason why this is assumed is because deep down, most men believe that they have no value as a person and women will give it to him.

If fact, if you feel the need to run qualification instead of feeling the need to qualify her, it's because you have low self-worth. How many times has she shit-tested you? If a random man uses those same words, would you let it go? And yet, you're waiting for investment stage to kick in.

But if i don't run qualification, then attraction isn't strong. What do i do then?

Then you simply loose her.

What! No way - This is bullshit advice. I'll loose a lot of girls this way.

Well you loose most girls anyway shithead! They're called no girls and treated by the community as if they never existed.

See what i mean by keeping women on pedestal; And you thought you don't do that.

Everytime a woman shit-tests you, if you have sufficient self-worth, you will qualify her. It will be like breathing - sure you have conscious control over it, but you normally don't think about it. And most woman will shit test you. They need that to get turned on and be attracted, much the same way you need those tits, asses and long legs.

The value of no girls

You're afraid that she'll say no. Most will girls will say no anyway and you can do nothing about it. No good game will help you - it's all about availability. And it's a good thing that they can say no.

Sugarcoated version of this is - most people aren't compatible with you, so rejection is good. Problem is, this doesn't work because most of the times, you're trying to just bang them and not looking for something more; Compatibility is barely an issue then.

Let's run a thought experiment. Say women were your dream automatons : Slaves to their hypergamic impulses and incapable of free will. All you need to do is get proficient in game!

Your mom goes out to buy some groceries. There's this older dude, wearing polo shirts and khakis. He points at the sriracha in her kart and says that it's too hot for him; It's ambiguous if he was pointing at her breasts. He remarks how cool her ear-rings are; They exchange numbers.

She gets a text the next day; He saw someone with the same earrings and ten cats. Firty chatting. He asks if she wants to come over for some wine tasting event in some nearby place. She rationalizes that she doesn't have anything to do that weekend.

They have a chat and this guy is charming. They hop off to a bar. He looks into her lips and then into eyes, but switches to how music is great in these parts. He does it again and pulls her for a kiss; He's a good kisser. They chat for a while, and he asks her to come by his place - he'll show her some paintings and introduce her to his dog.

They go and he escalates. Fingers her. And then fucks her. Turns her over and does her in the ass. He is ripped, has good stamina and your mum has a great orgasm. He makes her say that she's her sexdoll, slaps her face and cums on it. She loves it!

And now she has to get back to your dad. Their anniversary is coming up and preparations have to be met. Hopefully she doesn't meet another attractive guy, otherwise it would further delay her.

What the fuck ! Fucking freak!

You know what i'm talking about. This is london daygame model : Almost textbook. Your mum is now a +1.

How does it feel? To live in a world of mere behavioral lookup tables?

Such a world would be completely devoid of any intimacy - even conditional intimacy. A very different social dynamic would prevail and society would be totally alien to what it is now.

Next time you hate on no girls, remember this. Overriding hypergamous desires is partly evolutionarily selected, a group adaptation. For a species like us, tribes which didn't behave this way would be wiped out because of group infighting.

She said no to you. Maybe you're ugly in her eyes. Or, maybe she's not available. Either way, this is exactly how you want it to be; Trust me on this. It may dent your self-esteem a bit, but a realistic appraisal of your SMV allows you to base your self-worth in healthier ways, even if you don't think it does.

Game as scaffolding

As commonly discussed in the community, game model is a scaffolding - or more technically, a spandrel. It is there to imbibe certain mindsets and behaviors in you. When you do this for a while, you find three things: Firstly, the entire model isn't required most of the time. Secondly, even failures, no girls and rejections have enormous value in shaping up your character. And finally, game is no silver bullet.

When you're ready, you'll prefer authenticity because it has low cognitive load; You don't need to think about it. You behave normal, and if the set deviates from your standard of a good quality set, you try to steer it back if possible or let it go. You behave simpler, but very coherent and clear.

Get comfortable loosing girls - and in a deep way. Loosing girls is a part of the game, but don't sacrifice your self-worth for it. Qualify, but only if you feel like it. If she's being a good girl in set, why would you want to punish her for that? Do that only when you feel like it, and don't take shit. There's a way to chase women without degrading yourself, and you realize it with experience. Be more authentic when that time comes, and let life take it's own flow. Never bullshit yourself.